I have veen feeling cold in my heart and guts since last several months and more so, last 4 week or so. The job is not exciting, the 'one' is a bastard. It was like I have reached a cross road and had to figure out what should be done next.
Today, evening wantched this movie. Its a story about a couple forced to marry to get the money with clauses like one wil get the full kitty if they get dovorce if the other make some adultery etc. Both of them schemed to make the other opt out. Each of them had a friend who wanted them divorced. Eventually inspite of everything, they fall in line but some misunderstanding happens, and they ask and get a divorce. The guy offered to split the money. The girl didnt want any of that money. She went on to resign from her job and went out to a beach with a light house to find herselve since that was only the place where she had ever found joy, pure simple joy having no burden or responsibilities tugging at her. She has shared this before with the guy. The guy, now madly in love, repents. He found her and they got married for the real reason and for keeps.
This move warmed my heart. and now, I got a mail which be the end of the agony with the asshole.