We sit now classically at the crossroad. Have never felt more confused in life. So far only twice in my life I has very confused. Once back in stodent days at IISC bangalore, to decide on the project to do, I walked till 3am in the monring in the soccer field to make the decision. The decision was to take the more difficult road and it did help to have taken that decision. The other time it was more tumultous but the decision that was taken in retrospect was the obvious and easy one for a Asian guy.
Being rootless last four year, living the modern gypsy life been enormous fun. However, unstability and being on the move give rise to the nagging doubt on to what extent it would eb good for our boy and when we have decide to get mack to the settled normal life. In my gut, I feel we could do this for few more years but then it give rise also to insecurity if we would be able to pull it off when needed few years down the line or if it would make everything much more difficult. It is increasingly also apparent that it take time and lot of effort to understand a new country, its people, its moral fabric, its educational system and still it is much more difficult to understand the issues which one only understand being at a place for long time.
In Singpore, they do a segration at primary schoool based on merit and in effect ones destination is lrgely sealed at that early stage. Being a let bloomer who spent his young years being on the bad books of the teachers and only pulling it off at later stage, it doesnt give lot of comfort.
The education system is great in UK but then One reads about hundreds of student who wouldnt get a college seat this year and either have to take a year break or go for vocational colleges. Not very comforting reading to say the least.
All these have taken its tool and feel an inner urge to decide and be somewhere where we can be stable for next decade or so. Yet, feel it in my guts and find it difficult to acept that might have to compromise the career to achieve this.
Thats is difficult to accept.
Some opportunities are coming up and coming up fast and furious. If I let go of these, there is no guarantee that these would come again in future but some of these options look also suboptimal.
What Should I do?
Seems another night long walk, this time on the streets of Bangkok would happen soon.
Being rootless last four year, living the modern gypsy life been enormous fun. However, unstability and being on the move give rise to the nagging doubt on to what extent it would eb good for our boy and when we have decide to get mack to the settled normal life. In my gut, I feel we could do this for few more years but then it give rise also to insecurity if we would be able to pull it off when needed few years down the line or if it would make everything much more difficult. It is increasingly also apparent that it take time and lot of effort to understand a new country, its people, its moral fabric, its educational system and still it is much more difficult to understand the issues which one only understand being at a place for long time.
In Singpore, they do a segration at primary schoool based on merit and in effect ones destination is lrgely sealed at that early stage. Being a let bloomer who spent his young years being on the bad books of the teachers and only pulling it off at later stage, it doesnt give lot of comfort.
The education system is great in UK but then One reads about hundreds of student who wouldnt get a college seat this year and either have to take a year break or go for vocational colleges. Not very comforting reading to say the least.
All these have taken its tool and feel an inner urge to decide and be somewhere where we can be stable for next decade or so. Yet, feel it in my guts and find it difficult to acept that might have to compromise the career to achieve this.
Thats is difficult to accept.
Some opportunities are coming up and coming up fast and furious. If I let go of these, there is no guarantee that these would come again in future but some of these options look also suboptimal.
What Should I do?
Seems another night long walk, this time on the streets of Bangkok would happen soon.
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