Lifes in a Limbo.
We are paying the price of living for three years in a serviced apartment by having hardly any friends for Shennu to play with. The fact is when we came, we came for two year and didnt expect to stay longer. Now we have completed three years and likely will stay another six month or so and it breaks our heart with guilt that we have deprived him so much. This place had its advantage mainly from monetary pov which made us decide on this and we didnt have any experience on how limitting a stay here can be. Coming in a short assignment which went on for some more time, we didnt feel the need for a car in Bangkok but it also costed us a lot interms of mobility and knowing the place. Bad decisions which cannt be reversed, such is life.
Shennu got very good feedback in his last class but again Im getting concerned about his writing, his abilities to relate maths to everyday occurances and got very mad at him yesterday. Dona rightly later pointed out how we were at his age and that made me see the things in a different perspective. I guess it is the fear of the unknown and a desire for him to have a beuatiful future is what drives me to drive him which maynt be always right since it rob him of his present sometimes. The fact that we dont have a safety net of friends and relatives to fall back on doesnt help either.
We wanted Robinhood and Shihaan and we know he liked it when now a days we see him play with his old shords and in role plays, he becomes Robin now a days.
We feel so sad that Lucas moved to Singapore and Philip moved to Hungary, they were two of the Shrihaan's closest friends.
We went to the year six induction discussion at his school. What stuck us were 1. most of the parents were much older than us 2. half of them were from local and the other half was whites 3. three old whitemen came with their much yonger oriental wives 4. one mom didnt know that the school 4. Three of the vocal mom's concentrated on why they shouldnt be allowed on facebook and not any queries on the curriculum!
The game of Ludo is our things for bonding now a days and when schools werent there, we sometimes played till 1.30am. These are the memories which creats zeal to live.
We might go back to India and rapidly deteriorating conditions in India worries us a lot. The political system is becoming currupt day by day, there is no sense of shame and sin in social lives anymore, infrastrcuture is crumbling, roads are congested, dirt and decays stares at everyday life everyday, every minute. Shennu is sad and allmost in tears whenever we talk of Mumbai theseday. We hope even if we have to go, we will get a chance to comeout again. It doesnt go with our desire to give hin stability but stability at the cost of stagnation and bad quality of life is not something we seem to be able to settle for.
English in Thaliad is a good business. We saw yesterday, aadvert, 'Welcome to the land of seemingly endless opportunities, Thaliand'!
Not been blogging much which is solely due to the mental fatigue. We know though that we shall overcome this phase a good times will come to us again soon.
We are paying the price of living for three years in a serviced apartment by having hardly any friends for Shennu to play with. The fact is when we came, we came for two year and didnt expect to stay longer. Now we have completed three years and likely will stay another six month or so and it breaks our heart with guilt that we have deprived him so much. This place had its advantage mainly from monetary pov which made us decide on this and we didnt have any experience on how limitting a stay here can be. Coming in a short assignment which went on for some more time, we didnt feel the need for a car in Bangkok but it also costed us a lot interms of mobility and knowing the place. Bad decisions which cannt be reversed, such is life.
Shennu got very good feedback in his last class but again Im getting concerned about his writing, his abilities to relate maths to everyday occurances and got very mad at him yesterday. Dona rightly later pointed out how we were at his age and that made me see the things in a different perspective. I guess it is the fear of the unknown and a desire for him to have a beuatiful future is what drives me to drive him which maynt be always right since it rob him of his present sometimes. The fact that we dont have a safety net of friends and relatives to fall back on doesnt help either.
We wanted Robinhood and Shihaan and we know he liked it when now a days we see him play with his old shords and in role plays, he becomes Robin now a days.
We feel so sad that Lucas moved to Singapore and Philip moved to Hungary, they were two of the Shrihaan's closest friends.
We went to the year six induction discussion at his school. What stuck us were 1. most of the parents were much older than us 2. half of them were from local and the other half was whites 3. three old whitemen came with their much yonger oriental wives 4. one mom didnt know that the school 4. Three of the vocal mom's concentrated on why they shouldnt be allowed on facebook and not any queries on the curriculum!
The game of Ludo is our things for bonding now a days and when schools werent there, we sometimes played till 1.30am. These are the memories which creats zeal to live.
We might go back to India and rapidly deteriorating conditions in India worries us a lot. The political system is becoming currupt day by day, there is no sense of shame and sin in social lives anymore, infrastrcuture is crumbling, roads are congested, dirt and decays stares at everyday life everyday, every minute. Shennu is sad and allmost in tears whenever we talk of Mumbai theseday. We hope even if we have to go, we will get a chance to comeout again. It doesnt go with our desire to give hin stability but stability at the cost of stagnation and bad quality of life is not something we seem to be able to settle for.
English in Thaliad is a good business. We saw yesterday, aadvert, 'Welcome to the land of seemingly endless opportunities, Thaliand'!
Not been blogging much which is solely due to the mental fatigue. We know though that we shall overcome this phase a good times will come to us again soon.
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