Life always teaches

Its been always a craving in Sushant to have a relationship whenever possible. Age didnt reduce this urge rather it has fueled a sense in him that time is running out and if something has to happen, it has to happen soon. He then met her. She is young, petite, gave him stolen looks in return to his and had the distant look and appeal so that he started wondering if she was the one with whom he would have a relationaship. It appeared improbable though if any thing was possible. He was always scared of rejection and being made fun off given how important dignity and respect was to him. He started making slow, tentive moves and found those moves didnt illicit negative or stearn reactions which made him gain in confidence to make stronger yet tentative moves. She was married but it so turned out that her husband would travel extensively. She didnt tell stories of how she adored and admired him and it was more like an equal relationship. It was like he traveled so the marriage was safe, they fought it seems incessently. She was easy to talk to and she was always easy and helpful. There would be three of them in the car and soon he asked her to avoid Puja. She did. HE asked her if they could go for coffee, they did. Their hands will touch tentatively and she would act like everything was normal. He asked her out again for dinner. They went to a pub and came out only when it's shutters were being downed. In between the days they exchanged sms's galore talking of things that mattered and didnt matter. She became more like his addiction. He one day soon asked if he could come to her place and with little hesitation, she said she was fine with it. They finished a bottle of wine and amidst much flirtations, they promised to have a repeat sometimes soon. He always was getting worrying signals from his mind that was in turmoil. He dreamed of having a life together someday in distant future, she didnt utter any words of any meaning which would have meant that she felt the same way. She was young and she saw her life blossom in many different places in many different aspects, rightly. He asked her to stay in the same city, she said she wanted to see the world and they would remain friends. She would go on chatting and then abruptly stopp the sms's. He would go wild with anxiety but she would always have logical answers which made sense and he would more and more entangled in her vicisions schemeing drama. He was travelling and came staright to her place from airport. The relationship became imtimate. Over next weeks, the intimacy grew. He started feeling bit bit some reciprocation of feelings. She hugged and she would be worried if he was angry. She would appear to miss him when distance between them was much. He was tormented. He had fallen very badly. He became jelous of she having any intimacy with anybody else. He became concerned more and more. He was on the verge of hurting his wife and son. The son was all he had and all he cared and lived for in his life. He knew he had to get hold of himself, find balance and pull back from her and take it very very eay nd as it comes. There is no future in that rather there shouldnt be any future in that. So he resolved to be very pratical and get his life back on track.